Sunday, January 25, 2009

For My Gramps


In loving memory of

Kenneth George Chick


October 31, 1921 - January 25, 2004



"I'll catch your smile on someones face

Your whisper in the wind's embrace

Through diamond stars and songs and dreams

I find your love in everything

The sun, the sky, the rolling sea

All conspire to comfort me

From sorrow's edge life's beauty seems

To find your love in everything

I've come to trust the hope it brings

To find your love in everything

Even as I fall apart,

Even through my shattered heart

I'll catch your smile on someones face.....amazing grace."

~Beth Nielsen Chapman





Thursday, January 22, 2009

22 Days Into the Year

Time to update "the list", I think. It's been awhile!


Reading: I just picked up the newest issue of Somerset Life. So far I have only paged it to look at all the wonderful photos, but I plan to have some sit down time to read the articles. I also peeked at the premier issue of Stuffed and I think I want to buy it on Friday when I am near a Chapters. It's got some adorable things. Things with button eyes which are so charming.



Listening: Right now, I'm spending alot of time listening to my iPod through the iListen speaker system my son gave me for Xmas. I love it. It has a remote control so if I want to skip a song, no problem! I've mainly been listening to a CD Sally Turlington made for our last Artsmiths music project. It's a mix of instrumental meditation type music, along with some Gregorian chants. It's perfect for working in the studio.


I am also about to look on iTunes for the Hoggin' All the Covers CD from the Band from TV. I hadn't heard of it, but my best friend Lisa told me about it because I am a big HOUSE fan. Hugh Laurie (HOUSE) does keyboards, Greg Grumberg (Heros) is on drums and a host of other actors who also happen to be musicians make up the band. If you go to the website, you can get a taste of their music by watching the video clip from when they were on Jay Leno.



Drinking: Yesterday was a stressful day spent mostly on the phone with my insurance company (who are very good) and my bank's insurance counter (who are not so good) trying to sort out not one but two claims. One claim the bank seems to have not submitted and yet they keep insisting they did and the other is because some cretin broke into my car over the weekend. In a moment of sheer stupidity, this thieving scumbag failed to notice I had a trunk release latch and set to getting into my trunk via the backseat. The damage is considerable. Can you say $300 deductible boys and girls?


In any case, after dealing with all that, I needed a chai fix so off I went to Starbuck's. While I was standing in line, I spotted a cup I had to have. It's a buttermilk cream colour and stamped into the ceramic it says "Daily cup". I just liked the look of it. I have a thing for Starbuck's ceramic mugs. The lion's share of my collection are in deep dark red. Retail therapy always makes me feel better!



Anticipating: My birthday is two months away as of today and already plans are being made. Some folks dread their birthdays. Not me. It's the one day of the year that is special because it's yours. I love birthdays. Indy will also e celebrating his first birthday mid-March. I think a puppy cake is in order! He is so spoiled. *wink*



Dreaming: I haven't had much time to daydream lately. I've been too busy dealing with work stuff and life stuff. I am preparing for several workshops right now, all of which are happening the first two weeks of February.



Doing: I've been spending alot of time playing catch up with all the small details of life. It's the small stuff everyone puts off when they are busy with other things that eventually need dealing with. (Like dusting-OMG! the dust bunnies!) I don't mind though-I like cleaning. It's sort of meditative and I always feel better when my house is in order. I never like to let it get too far out of hand.



Creating: I have been feeling a pull lately of going back to my roots in textiles. Last week, I pulled out my floss boxes and my box with all my special needles, scissors, threaders and other tools for needlework. I made something, a small heart that I embellished with tiny, iridescent sequins. It's going to become a part of something larger, so it's not finished yet, but it felt really satisfying to work with needle and thread again. I see more of that in my future.


The one lovely thing about needlework is that you can take it with you anywhere and work on it. One spring, I spent a couple hours each day at a park. I would park in the lot and put my car radio on and sit and stitch after I dropped my son off at school. I would roll my window down and get some fresh air and just enjoy some time to myself and I could people watch while I worked. No one bothered me and I actually finished an amazing amount of work that way.



My friend Lisa Ryder finally got the journal I send, so I can share what I made her now. The picture above is how I wrapped her journal. Unfortunately, I forgot to take pictures of the actual journal before it was wrapped, but you can see it on her blog. She posted about it here. It was alot of fun making this for her. I always enjoy making gifts for friends. It's always so much more meaningful to give and receive handmade gifts, I think. We plan to do more projects together in the future.

Saturday, January 10, 2009

Inspiration Boards

Copyright Tatterededge 2009

So in my studio, on the wall in front of my desk, I have a white magnet board. My sweet, supportive husband gave me a rather nice gift card for Xmas 2007 for IKEA so I could get whatever I wanted for my studio. (Smart man! He got HUGE brownie points for that!)One of the things I bought was a couple of these magnet boards to hang in the studio.


Anyway, over time, I have added bits and pieces of art from friends, until the board has been filled like you see in the picture above. It hasn't always looked this way-things have been added in or switched out, as new art bits arrive. The point is, I have decided new year = new board. (Don't worry, I didn't get rid of the art that was on it-just made room for it in other parts of the studio.)




It's something I look at all day, every day and I want to fill it up with new inspiration. I want to cover it with things that hold meaning for me. For example, as you can see here, the one and only thing I have posted on it right now is a sticker that was given to me along with my training manual for the 2010 Olympic and Paralympic games. I've put that up on my board because one of my dreams is to be selected to join the 2010 games team. That sticker signifies that dream. (The amazing studio house you can see in the pic is a gift from Jeannine Peragrine and of course I simply must have my voodoo art doll my friend Diane Moore gave me at AF last year close at hand. Those two things do not leave my desk!)



There are no rules. All that matters is that I add anything that seems important to me (art, magazine clippings, photos, letters, etc.) in the next 12 months. I think I will post pictures of my board here on my blog from time to time, because if you're anything like me, you have voyeuristic tendencies when it comes to how other people live. *laughs*



Speaking of voyeuristic tendencies, you can peek at a few inspiration boards now to get the gist of what I am talking about. There is one here that's interesting. There are tons more here. (God bless Flickr!)


And I am hoping that if I show you mine at some point, when it's covered, you'll show me yours by leaving me a link in the comments.
Here's to keepin' it fresh!










Friday, January 09, 2009

Perspective for 2009

Copyright Tattered Edge 2009


So here we are in the freshest moments of 2009. Everyone around me in blogland is posting about their intentions for the new year-new projects and words that will become the focus and direction of their lives, both artistically and otherwise. Everyone is making plans and moving foreword.


So what am I doing? I'm sitting here with no idea about what my word should be. No idea what projects I will be working on this year. Yes, that's right, I'm a blank canvass right now.


At first I was feeling distressed about not knowing. It bothered me because I am a natural organizer, an innovator, someone who knows what it takes to get from A-B and is always leading the charge. The more I've struggled with trying to figure it all out, the most upset and frustrated I've became. This stuff is usually so easy for me.


Then I began to see it for what it really was. I was looking for something to do (oh I am such an infamous a do-er!) and perhaps what I really need to focus on right now is just to find peace in simply being. To be okay with the not knowing. To sit in silence and feel comfortable with it.


Metaphorically, I think I need to be the leaf in the stream. I need to just enjoy the journey of floating down the river and see where it takes me. I have not one but two Buddhas here in the studio. The Buddahs are always sitting quietly with their eyes closed, focused on their inner selves. They are calm and peaceful. I need to embrace that inner Zen I know I have and allow things to unfold as they may. It's not just about trusting the universe, but also trusting myself. To allow my instincts and intuition to guide me wherever I need to be and to do whatever I am meant to be doing. Pretty crazy eh? Well it is and it isn't, depending on how you look at it.



"If you want a quality, act as if you already had it."

~William James

Acting as if. It's an interesting concept. What would happen in our lives this year if we acted as if we were smart enough or talented enough or wise enough or any of the other hundreds of things we think we are not? I am willing to bet there would be some mighty powerful changes in our lives.

So right now, my resolution for the new year is going to be to act as if I know what I am doing and where I am going (even though right now I don't) and I will trust that the way will be made clear as I make my way though this year. I am going to act as if all will be well. May it be so.

Perspective, it's a wonderful thing.